Going public

It's hard to be diligent about the blogging when I know that no one is reading the blog. You see, Josh told me I was not allowed to use our full names. But I had written a very snarky About Me entry using my full name. But then he said I could not publish it if that was in there.

So I changed it. And now it just uses my initials. Booo. It was much funnier before, trust me.

But now he said it can be listed online. Fabulous.

From now on I am making a concerted effort to post every day. I said I needed to start a blog to have an outlet for my creativity, which is being sucked out of my brain each and every day that I perform this mindless work that is my job. I just code and copy and paste. All day. At home. While I have the TV on. In pilates pants. With a cat on my lap.

Today I made a big mistake. And I felt like crap. I hate when I do stupid stuff and it's a public mistake and I get scared like when I was in grade school and got yelled at by the teacher.

I always get a flood of panic, I literally feel a chill run through my body and I instantly develop a stomachache. And this was one that no one internal might have noticed, but I knew if even one person pointed it out, I was dead. So I fessed up.

GOD. I feel like a little kid again. But as I often like to ask myself, "Is (person who is mad) going to HIT me?" Since the answer is no, I usually tell myself to stop being such a baby and face the music.

Sometimes, on days like this, I was I had an anonymous job instead of an anonymous blog.